On My Mind

So, I’m sitting here on the sofa, trying to enjoy some quiet knitting time while little PB is napping, and I can’t turn off the chatter in my brain.  Does this ever happen to you?  Sure it does.  We all have our ways of coping, and for me a standby way to shut down the chatter is to write a rant or make a list.  So here it goes.

The Rant

It’s almost Halloween and I don’t have a costume for PB.  It’s her first Halloween, and not one she’ll remember, and so I haven’t felt like worrying about it much.  I’ve gone to the shops and checked out a few options; there were even the daydreams back in August of what I might knit or craft for her.  But the truth is (and here I risk sounding like a Bad Mother) I just don’t care if she has a costume or not.

It turns out other people seem to care, as I get asked nearly every day what she’s going to be for Halloween. I feel this outside pressure to have a 1st Halloween Moment documented in photos, and the thought of not doing so makes me feel guilty.  I don’t know about other mothers, but I don’t need any encouragement in that department!

I bought this outfit thinking it was cute and could be worn for a couple of festive occasions leading up to and including Halloween.

Enjoying the jack-o-lanterns at our pumpkin-carving party

In the end, the maternal guilt got the better of me and I hustled off to Target to buy a costume.  And I still feel bad for not making her one.  Sigh.

The List

  • I haven’t touched my Mystery socks in a week.  I knew this was likely to happen, which is precisely why I decided to knit both socks at the same time.
  • Instead, I’ve been casting on and planning new projects like a mad woman.  Some are gifty surprises, and others are for me.  I bought yarn for the Climbing Vines Pullover, and am actually considering knitting it in pieces as written. I know.
  • A dear friend sent me a Rhinebeck Ravelry party goody bag this week, and it was a welcome surprise on a day I was feeling particularly alone in our new town.  It was full of little treats, including some dandy coupons that led me down the rabbit hole of online yarn shopping and project-planning.
  • I am thinking about holiday knitting.  Nothing grand, but a few little ornaments as gifts.  Check out these wee snowmen from Mochimochiland; I might make a million of them, they’re so cute!  Do you have any holiday knitting plans?

I hope you have a wonderful weekend and, if it’s your thing, a festive Halloween!

12 thoughts on “On My Mind

  1. What a sweet little pumpkin! Looking forward to my surprise holiday ornament…….so what did you get at Target? Did I see a Gnome? PS…you are a fantastic Mother! No guilt allowed from my perspective.

  2. Let me know what part of town you live in and maybe we could meet for lunch sometime an a day you feel lonely!
    PB will love the pics you shared with us. No guilt allowed. Parenting is hard enough without that!

  3. you and Jeannie live in the same town! Wow! America just got a bit smaller!

    I’m sorry you’re feelign a bit lonely in your new town. I’m sure that doesn’t feel very good at all. New towns are hard. But you have a totally gorgeous girl there in her orange suit. So lovely.

    i haven’t touched my beaded shawl in over a week because I’m just so tired in the evenings at the moment and have very little time to focus. Sounds like you’re planning some lovely stuff though.

  4. Love your blog! And, I know what you mean about the whole Halloween costume thing for babies too little to trick or treat. PB looks adorable in her Halloween outfit! I love the little snowmen–I will definitely have to knit some of them before the holidays. Last year I made a bunch of little korknisse elves: http://www.saartjeknits.nl/patterns/Korknisse.html
    I like them so much that I leave one on my window sash all year (he’s my Christmas sentinel, lol–56 crafting days left!

  5. The BOO-tiful outfit PB is wearing in the pumpkin picture is enough of a Halloween treat! Halloween has become such a BIG DEAL, and I don’t really like it much. Scary? Yuck. Over-sexualized? Yuck!! But I did like making costumes for my kids when they were old enough to care, and young enough to still want me to.

    No holiday knitting plans. That would be too much pressure. I’ll just see what rolls off my needles at the appropriate time…

  6. No mama-frettin’ allowed! Jasper doesn’t have a baby book yet…. and he’s almost 2. Talk about mommy guilt! Georgia looks so sweet and grown up in her festive outfit- squeeze her for me! Shhhhhhhhhh…. chatter in Sonia’s brain! Knitting and being an awesome mama can commence!

  7. PB’s Halloweeny outfit is enough for a baby that age.

    For corn’s sake, she can’t even eat the trick or treat candy! 😉

    We miss you here in Connecticut and thought about you while we were at Rhinebeck. We ran into Jessica and her mom, so I’m assuming the goodie bag was from her. Be very thankful. There have been people who have left nasty comments on the Ravelry blog because they did not receive a goodie bag!

  8. I wish I could vanquish the guilt, but if it makes you feel less so please know we’re all in that boat. Started a baby book for my six-year-old and have only about two pages done. Don’t even mention the socks still on the needles for the first day of school. I’m with you on the personal projects appealing. I think they sneak up on us as consolation prizes when we’re down. The new community is going to love you and your family. It will feel like home in no time!

  9. Cutest.thing.ever., homemade costume or no! I love how she looks vaguely guilty, as if to say … I have no idea how these became jack-0-lanterns; I was just sitting amid the pumpkins, minding my own business …

  10. I think that’s perfectly Halloween-y–she looks like herself, discovering pumpkins.

    Although… as I pointed out to my sister when she said her kids are too little to understand Halloween, now is the time to start training… I mean, teaching… her that Halloween is when kids collect candy for their moms to eat, so a costume can’t hurt either.

  11. No worries… you have a whole year to think of an awesome costume!!! Some day we should dress our babes in matching costumes…. just an idea!

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