They say that life with a small child means constant change. That once you get comfortable with the way things are, they go and stop taking a morning nap, forgoe eating a favorite food, or just start talking up a storm. Some changes are delightful, others are a little bit less so.
These days, our rhytyms as a family are taking on an entirely new tone. Where once I was a stay at home mama an felt no sense of rush at the beginning of a new day, now I am a working mom and wife with a lot going on outside the home for the first time in years. Sweetie is returning to work full time this week after having a few good stretches of time off over the summer. And next week, PB goes from stay at home toddler to an enrolee at a Montessori morning program for toddlers.
Folks, this is a lot of change. It keeps me up at night, worrying about what I’ve done to all of us by decided to open my own business. In my heart, I know it is right, that to pursue one’s dream is a brave and life-affirming thing.
In the pit of my stomach, especially late at night, I worry that this is all one huge mistake that could irrevocably damage our little family. When I’m at work, I worry about what I’m missing in PB’s day, and when I’m home, I can’t stop thinking about the shop. Being present in the moment is taking a little bit more effort on my part. I have got to get that into check.
Working parents, how do you do it? Knitting does help, that’s for sure!