“Are you having a good summer?” she asked with a hopeful smile.
I took a deep breath and felt just how tired I felt in my body.
I could see that she too was tired. A fellow mom and entrepreneur, she knows what it’s like to be juggling a very full life. And so I knew I could tell her the hard truth: No.
I was not having a good summer.
The intensity of that realization hit me like a tidal wave.
Summer is supposed to be a fun, carefree time, right?! I felt anything but carefree.
What was I doing wrong?
That afternoon on the way home from work, I cried. I had to pull over at a park and let the tears flow just to ease the tension and fear of all that had been going on.
Business had slowed down drastically in the spring at the shop. In an effort to cut down on some expenses, I was working more. I had been agonizing over some other business decisions for weeks, and I was having trouble turning off my brain.
I am also launching my new side hustle: mentoring creatives. And hosting out of town family friends! With an already packed schedule, my self-care routine was out the window. I was impatient with my children, I had hadn’t been making anything, and I hadn’t seen mu friends in weeks.
Which all adds up to less laid back summer fun with the family. I felt stretched thin and perpetually tired.
After being sick twice in under a month and suffering from insomnia, I decided it was time. Time to take matters into my own hands again instead of letting life run away with me. I’d like to say I created the opportunity for myself, but we happened to have plans to meet family for a weekend in the mountains. The timing couldn’t have been more perfect!
I decided to unplug from email and social media and say yes to all the fun opportunities that came my way that weekend.
We picnicked in the mountains. I waded in a lake with my kids. I cast on a new sweater project for fall. My sister, mom and I made a pie together. I went down a waterslide on a double inner tube with my wife. We let the kids eat all the treats and stay up past their bedtimes. And I did my best to clear my head of all things business related.
I came back not only refreshed, but a little bit lighter. I don’t have to have all the answers right now. I don’t know what my life and businesses will look like six months from now, and that’s okay.
Sometimes letting go of trying to hold all the pieces together and figure everything out opens you up to see new solutions or let the answer arrive in its own time. As I get back into things it will be easy to slide back into worrying about what happens next. But having taken this time to reset will help keep me moving forward with less stress.
For the rest of the summer, my decisions will be ruled by finding joy, being present with my kids, and reconnecting with myself. And just in case: I plan to have another unplugged weekend at the end of the summer!
Now I’m relieved to say that yes, I am having a good summer.