Thoughts on self-care & why I eat standing up

Thoughts on self-care & why I eat standing up

Thoughts on self-care & why I eat standing up

Some days it feels like the needs of my children are incessant. From the moment my eyelids open into the 5am darkness to the moment their little bodies succumb to sleep, they NEED.

They need love, snuggles, attention, comfort, and reassurance. They also need pancakes cut up just so, a cup of juice -no, I SAID WATER!, poopy bottoms wiped and then balanced on the “big” potty. They need latex gloves put on both hands and fire truck ladders extended. They need me to listen and offer feedback. They need me to basically bear witness and be available to assist them every second we’re together.

Which, in some ways is totally fine. That’s parenting, and meeting their needs is my job.

But that doesn’t mean there aren’t times where I hide in the bathroom pretending to poop for 10 minutes so I can take an Instagram break. Or that I don’t join them at the table because the second my ass hits the chair someone needs me to get something or wants out of their chair.

Occasionally, on the really tough days, I sit them at the table facing the tv while they eat.

I eat standing up in the kitchen, in plain view but far enough away to not trigger the Need button. I hunch over the plate scooping forkfuls of leftovers into my mouth while scrolling through Facebook, eager to accept my Mother of the Year award.  But I am okay with it, because on some days, this is one of the only peaceful moments I get. Some days, this is what self-care looks like for me.

Motherhood is made up of these messy moments, times where we’re doing the best we can. And as much as my kids need of me, I need me too.

What does self-care even mean, anyway?!

To me, self-care means practicing self-love. It means connecting with my self in a space that is free of outside distractions, and treating myself super well.

When I say self-care, I’m not talking about a full on day at the spa (although that would be amazing!).  I’m talking about finding small pockets of time to be alone with yourself and your thoughts. Time to focus on the habits that bring you a feeling of calm, healthfulness, and strength.  Sometimes that looks like eating standing up while your kids watch tv so you can catch your breath.

I can hear some of you thinking:

“That’s all well and good, but isn’t that a little selfish?”

“Self-care is totally indulgent.”

“Easy for you to say!”

“I don’t deserve it.”

Whew.  I hear you. In fact, I’ve said all of those things to myself!  But I would never ever say them to a friend. So, why are we so judgmental with ourselves?  Why don’t we deserve to treat ourselves well?

Listen to me when I say this: You cannot afford not to practice self-care.

Still not sure?  What if you replaced the word “self” with “health”?

Health-care isn’t selfish or indulgent or unnecessary.

This subtle shift in perspective really opened my mind to possibilities. Because healthcare isn’t selfish, it’s necessary!  I have to take care of myself to be around for my family and my business.

If you thought of self-care as a form of health care, what would it look like for you?

Over the next few weeks I’m going to be sharing a bit of my journey back to me. I’ll be exploring heath, self-care, parenting and making changes in my business.

I hope you’ll join me and share some of your thoughts along the way. Thank you for being here.

This Moment


Reading a graphic novel while I knit.  Pure, peaceful bliss.

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{this moment} ~ A Friday ritual. A single photo – no words – capturing a moment from the week. A simple, special, extraordinary moment. A moment I want to pause, savor and remember. ~ Inspired by Soule Mama





The garden is growing.


Sweet bunting in The Fibre Co. Acadia


Lobelia in Anzula Cloud

And so is my knititng.





But most of all, this summer my little girl is growing.  She’s made that indescribable crossing from toddler to small child, and there’s every indication she’ll just keep going from here.  She’s a joker, an artist, a storyteller, and a joyful liver of life.

The way she is lives so fully in the present is truly teaching me what it means to live in the moment.  I am reminded to give her my best as often as I can.  The rest of it: the laundry, the crumbs on the counter, even the running of my business, can just wait a minute.  Because who would want to miss that look?  Not me.

This Moment


inspired by Soule Mama:

{this moment} – A Friday ritual. A single photo – no words – capturing a moment from the week. A simple, special, extraordinary moment. A moment I want to pause, savor and remember.

If you’re inspired to do the same, leave a link to your ‘moment’ in the comments for all to find and see.


Ennui :: On the Needles


Lobelia Cardigan in Anzula Cloud, from the lovely new Pom Pom Quarterly (all available at Stash, of course!)


Usually after I finish a project, I can’t wait to cast on for something New. In fact, my fingers have likely been itching to feel new yarn, and my brain daydreaming of new patterns since the finish line came into view on that last project.

But not this time. Sure, I looked at patterns and tried to get excited about something. I even cast on for a new cardigan with Liz, but only knit 2 rows on it in over a week. This was bound to happen; it seems my annual bout with knitting ennui has arrived. Not to worry: I know this will pass. Instead, I’m using this freed up mental space to daydream of planting a garden and decorating our home. Hello, Pinterest!

I was off work this past week, and so far the free time has been spent cleaning out closets and facing those boxes and piles of things we shoved away for “later” when we moved in last August. I actually found a box of empty boxes taking up valuable space in out guest room/office closet. Ridiculous!  Like an airing of the stash, it also feels very good to air out a closet or two, de-clutter a bit, a treat myself to a trip to the office supply store.

Who knows, next week I could be obsessively knitting again!

What projects outside of playing with yarn have your attention right now?

In the Closet

Well hello, there.  Sorry for the disappearing act there.  We’ve been packing, moving, and unpacking these past 2 weeks, and I’m sure I don’t have to tell you how busy that is.  I took a step back from the computer and while I enjoyed the break to a certain degree, I’ve also been itching to get back to this space.

There’s almost oo much to catch up on, so I think for now I’ll just say this:  I have a lot of handknits.  The truth of the matter was discovered while I was packing up our hall closet, the one where we keep our winter coats and woolens.  I had a hanging closet organizer in there just full of handknit hats, scarves, shawls, gloves, neckwarmers… you get the idea.

And then I packed my sweaters.  And my shawls.  And unpacked my stash at the new place.  Oh my.  There’s so much to knit and wear, I hardly know where to begin!  I’m thinking the works-in-progress basket is a good place to start.  There’s only 2 shawls, 2 sweaters, and a pair of socks in there. ; )

Happy Friday!

January 9th

Sometimes you just need to stop and peel a tiny clementine.  Forget about all those other thoughts buzzing around in your sleep-deprived, anxious head and stop.  Notice.  Smell.  Feel the moment.

It’s been a Monday, I tell you what.  This whole working mom gig is hard, despite all of its benefits and rewards.  I have played both sides of the working mom/stay at home mom fence, and neither job is easy.  Being a parent is hard work, and even though I have nearly 2 years experince now, I’m still learning every day!

I was feeling a bit overwhelmed and uncertain about a lot of things both at home and at work this morning.  After a few tears over coffee with my mom, I succeeded in turning the day around.  Things on my to-do list and my wishlist were accomplished: making an appointment for a long over-due haircut; sipping tea, knitting, and watching Top Chef with my mom; starting the heap of laundry; cleaning the kitchen.

My mind is a bit calmer now and things are feeling better.  I am trying to remind myself to stop and breathe when things get hectic internally or externally. Peel an orange, notice the simple, cheerful things in these dreary winter days.  In addition to the clementines, I am finding comfort and cheer in glittery nail polish, cinnamon-scented tea, birthday balloons, the promise of a new book on the nightstand, connecting with friends, and daydreaming of the next knitting project.

What’s bringing you calm, cheer, and comfort this winter?


I knew that although PB won the initial battle, I would ultimately win the wear-this-sweater war.

Granted, I snuck it on while she was busy at playing, but she did leave it on all day.  It’s a perfect fit, and I am back to thinking about making her another sweater this winter.  Cinnamon, Tea Leaves, Petite Facile, Milo, Phoebe’s Sweater, and Camilla Kid are all strong contenders.

What are you dreaming of knitting next?