One big year, one little word

It’s New Year’s Day, 2015.  Naturally, I’m feeling reflective of the past year and looking out toward the vast unknown of the year to come.  It’s a time of self-reflection, one that brings up deeply complicated dichotomies.

I made mistakes last year and I had some big wins.  I gave up on things, I chose to let things go.  I picked fights and made up and let relationships slip and made deep connections. I created a lot of wonderful things and still feel like I should have done more.  I failed and succeeded and won and lost and loved and hurt.

This is the richness of life.

 

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Going into 2105, I’m thinking a lot about my one little word for the year.  I’m searching for a word that I can aspire to, explore, settle in to.

For the past 2 years I’ve had phrases for the year that were chosen to help guide my intentions and focus for that year.  2013 was Going Pro and focused primarily on building my business in a way that was big and risky and professional.  2014’s phrase was Positive Ease.  This phrase served to remind me to look for more ease and positivity in my life.  I’ll think I’ll bring this one along with me, it’s a work in progress.

As I stare down 2015, I know this will be a year of great growth and change for me personally and my family as a whole.  Welcoming a new child into the mix will be a different kind of transition than it was the first time around.  We already know way more than we did as newbie parents, and that gives me peace of mind.  But what I don’t know how to do is parent two children.  And I definitely don’t know how to do it while still taking care of myself and my relationships.  I also don’t know what it’s going  to be like to own and run a business with a newborn.

Bottom line: I don’t know what this journey is going to ask of me, and that leaves me feeling vulnerable.

I know this coming year is going to offer up a lot of opportunities for me to feel challenged and overwhelmed by these things, and I’m going do my best to face them and not let them bring me down.  This is a year I’m going to grow a lot as a mama and a person.  I want to stay flexible and let the little things go.  I want to remain open to all this new love and bravely face the challenges that come along with it.

To help figure this all out, I’ve chosen Grow as my word for 2015.

I like this word as it encapsulates the ideas of flexibility, of stretching outside my comfort zone, extending beyond what I already know and reaching into new areas.  I want to grow, expand, flourish, and become the best of myself in 2015 while facing unknown challenges and joys with grace.

Do you like to choose a word or phrase to help guide you each year?  I’d love to hear more about it!